tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Wednesday, September 17, 2003]

Goodbye enrichment... HELLO REGULAR MATH! *jumps around looking like a lunatic*

I swear... it's liberation for me. No more annoying voice. No more fast lessons. No more stupid quizzes. No more befuddled brain. No more foreign language. No more heiroglyphics. I am free... freee... FREEEE!!! KALAYAAN!

Hmmm. Probably got an 82. This is the one and only instance when I'll probably thank God for failing me. I LOATHE him with all my heart. I was totally traumatized when I was in first year... and the memories were frozen in my mind during 2nd and 3rd year, and it thawed this term. Now I can get rid of it forever! NYAHAHAHAHA!!!

Anyway... on to other things. My computer sucks big time. It broke down and I couldn't use the internet for a time. HELL. Oh well. At least it's okay now. ^_^

current stressing project: Research paper. *dundundunduuuuuunnnnn*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Sunday, September 14, 2003]

Finished ACET. Thank God. I believe I failed it. *hooray. hooray.* Three more entrance tests to go.

Lots of things to do. *sigh* And here goes second term. *referee suddenly pops out from nowhere* ROUND 2, FIGHT!!!

roar.

Tyson rocks my world. *is suddenly reminded of that stupid shampoo commercial with the "you rock my world" t-shirt* LOL. He's such a hottie... ^_^ All- American Rejects rule!!!

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Friday, September 12, 2003]

*squeals* KYAAAAA!!! I swear, Tyson from All- American Rejects is soooo cute! KYAA!!! *drools*

minnie me: Excuse her, ACET is tomorrow morning and she's squealing over a picture on a website. A way of relaxation, I should say. We all have our oddities.

*still squealing*

Scrap that. I don't EVER squeal. I just make these high pitched noises coming from the lower region of my esophagus.

minnie me: Right. Whatever you want. *whispers* Just go with the flow, people.

*squealing... and drooling*

Hm. This just proves the theory that when in a nervous state, I go completely insane before major exams that will alter my future. proof 1: I make imaginary conversaions with a minnie (as if I'm not small enough already) version of cynical me. proof 2: I'm not studying. proof 3: I SQUEAL, for God's sakes! SQUEAL! (minnie me: horrid thing, squealing.) Crap. I have to set things straight. *start banging head against the wall*

minnie me: You do that. *nods in approval*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Saturday, September 6, 2003]

Everything I have, everything I do now screams, "BLOODY DEPRESSED!" Right.

Let me give you some clues: 1) I have three lightbulbs in my room. Two of them are busted. My room is the haven of darkness now. 2) My new toothpaste is depressed. It doesn't bubble as much as I want it to. 3) Exams ended. ACET next week. Figure it out. 4) Know what a vernier caliper is? For me, it's a weapon. 5) depressing words are in my head like "Eristical" or "Stygian". 6) I have no social life *voice in head* What's social? what's life? 7) I write poems. The horror. 8)I'm planning to make a painting out of my tears... once I squeeze them out of my tearducts. 8) No more LSC. *sigh* I'd rather have than than go to batangas -- or anywhere in that matter -- with my family. The lesser of two evils. 9) I imagine flinging myself out the window and go flying like an anvil. 10) I need a drink. One green cross alcohol, please.

That sums it all up pretty well. ~_~' Garsh. Back to the slums and grime of overwork and no pay-- school. Oh yeah, here's a poem that I came up just recently:

Oh crap. I forgot.

*bows* Oh well. Nevermind. I'll just post something sometime. (Hey, I actually sound funny when I'm depressed. Weird.) Have a bloody fine day (or night) people.

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Saturday, August 30, 2003]

I believe I have the rare power of "inability to get drunk". Haha.

Okay, it started out this way: a friend invited me to his friend's gig and since it was my classmate's birthday, she agreed to celebrate it there. To tell you the truth, the place was like a haven for druggies -- I could barely see my hands in front of me because the smoke was so thick and heavy inside (I thought it was some sort of factory of 'smoked human ham' in disguise of a bar). Anyway, I got there just in time to catch the band's first song. By the way, the band's name was "Sausage Party" (I shall restrain myself from commenting on that. I hope nobody I know from *cough cough* reads this...). Well, they weren't bad. Really. See the sarcasm. Right. No... really... 'twas great fun actually, head- banging and all that. Though I really wanted to dance like hell in front, I had to stop the "wild thang" to come out because I would look like an idiotic idiot. There were other good bands there actually, all amateurs. *nods*

Oh yeah. The getting drunk bit... or rather, the lack of it. Well, there was this self- service thing and B-day girl and I went and ordered some food. She ordered first, calamares and beer, then went back to our table. I ordered the same thing - calamares. Then I decided to try that beer stuff. Thing was, I forgot the brand and I had a tough time trying to tell her I wanted beer -- not to mention the ear-splitting screeches and horrible sounds from the house wrecker band on the stage which made it all the more difficult to communicate. But I finally got through and I think we were both relieved. *phew* Well, to make the long story short, I began sipping my drink... finished one bottle... began on another one... finished that too... and some of my friends began pouring a bit of their drinks on my glass. I don't really know how much that amounted to. I suppose it was a lot. The marvel of it all was that I was still able to think clearly - though the world did spin around a couple of times and danced the hula - but i stayed sane (if I WAS sane from the start though... heehee). Had fun though. And I didn't have a hang- over at all. Cool. *grins*

I had to go out of the club once in a while to get some air. Some of my friends didn't really like the place so they went to a nearby quaint restaurant. Food there was good... and the ambiance was relaxing. Then the time came when I had to go home. 11:00. I swear, my parents even scolded me in the morning because it was so bloody late. Right. Good thing a part of me was still in alcohol land so I didn't lose my temper or did anything of the sort. And I don't think they knew I drank. I ran straight to the bathroom to purge myself. Haha. Oh well. Life. Sometimes, being evil is fun. *sigh* I know, I know... I'm responsible enough not to do it frequently though. ;p

Tests next week. Heaven then hell. I don't blame Lucifer for falling.

Crap, I sound like a goth. *laughs evilly*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Friday, August 22, 2003]

Hmmm. *looks around at empty, deserted blog* Right. What do I care? I'm not used to people reading my mind anyway. *shrugs*

Anyway, it's friday today and there's no school! *YAY!* It's sort of a day comemorating Ninoy Aquino, a hero during EDSA I. Pretty touching actually. But I'm not that patriotic... I went off to SM (Hell!! Everyone's in SM!!) and watched "Finding Nemo". Pretty cute, I like Dora, but It wasn't what I expected. Everyone kept saying it's SOOOOO nice. And I was with my 5 year- old cousin, who was very bratty today. I just wanted to strangle her! *makes strangling gestures* Such a bratty kid. Oh, did I say that she's a brat? *shakes head*

Oh yeah, we went to Intramuros yesterday - It was "love the Philippines" day. It was fun... we got to pass through those ancient walls, and there were those old buildings, and some kalesa, though I didn't get to ride on one. The presentations were great (GO IV-1!!!! Oo... babae nga kami... ), our teacher bought all of us gulaman at sago and we had lots of pics! YEAH! And while we were on our way back, we waved at some students (co- ed) outside and they danced the "otso- otso" for us! I was laughing so hard, my stomach hurt! They were so vulgar... yech! HAHAHA!!! *ROFLMAO* Oh, that was fun. ;p

Anyway, just saw the last episode of "AMAZING RACE". Shit. The gay people won. It's not like I'm against with them being gay or anything, I just hated the fact that they were in the first place for most of the time. ;p They are pretty cute though.. TOO BAD they're gay. And married. Hell. ;p Well, that's reality.

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Friday, August 15, 2003]

*SNIFF* *COUGH COUGH* *SNORT*

Oh bugger. Got sick last wednesday and the nurse sent me home after lunch. Cool. I don't remember getting sick last year... just goes to show that teachers are slave drivers and that's what I get for having a seat beside the aircon, along with sniffing classmates around me. Great. ~_~. Worst thing is, I was getting all depressed the night before, looking at my poetry notebook which I hadn't written on since 1st year. And now I've added 3 more entries. Hm. maybe that's one reason for it. Everything's just shitty. Well, It's not that bad... at least I get to have a 4- day weekend. Yay. :D

Oh bother. I've got review classes again. And in Ateneo this time. *sigh* Well, I totally hope this thing helps or I'll kick their asses to another dimension.~_~ WAH!!! I'm so darn busy these days!!! Is this what life is all about? being busy everytime? A life of having no life?! How ironic. *sigh* Well, It's not like I can get out of this. How I wish I could. ::depressed::

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Friday, August 8, 2003]

God, I feel so emotionally and physically drained.

This whole week had just been plain bull (pardon my language). We had practices until 5:30 in 3 days, I failed all my tests last wednesday, we have all these projects... add the damned application forms and the whole thing is a complete STRESS cake. ~_~ And we didn't win. Oh well. I feel kind of indifferent towards that area... what's important is that we did our best *smiles*. Right. And our painting (MY painting) won! YEAH!! Hmmm... well, come to think of it, at least there was one UP today. ;p

Anyway, I am definitely going to SLEEEEPPPP ALLLLL DAAAAYYYY tomorrow. ^_^ Okay... maybe sleep in the morning and cram the homework in the afternoon. Really, these teachers are heartless. *sob sob*

CONGRATULATIONS TO IV- 1! YOU WERE REALLY GREAT! *GRINS*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Wednesday, July 30, 2003]

Hmmm... I forgot to rave about SINTA last saturday. Here goes.

WAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I think that was the best school play I've ever seen! (Hey. look at it this way... before that, I've only seen AC plays, which really sucks. ;p) I went to Ateneo last saturday night with Sarsi and some people from section four. We looked kinda weird, a bunch of girls hanging around an all- boy's school high school campus. They opened the theatre late so we just stood there, looking cool (HAHAHA!!!). Too bad there weren't any cute guys around that time. I didn't know that THEY will come later.

We went inside and got good seats - second row in the middle. The director, a pretty old guy, gave a good introduction (though my sister told me he says the same thing every time ;p). Then the play starts. It has a little bit of everything I looked for. My stomach hurt because of laughing so hard at the comedians, my heart swelled at the romantic scenes under the silver moon (which was hanging by a transparent thread! I was so in AWE!!! I thought it was floating!!!), and my eyes teared up at the moments when they learned that they couldn't leave without the other (add floating silver confetti's like rain and I'm a sucker). It's totally beautiful... and the lead guy's TOTALLY hot! *sizzle sizzle* A pity he's gay. *grumbles* ~_~' Well, the "pader" guy and the tulisan were pretty cute too though. *sighs* I've fallen in love... with the play. (Nyahahaha! anong iniisip niyo? hmmm?? LOL)

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Sunday, July 27, 2003]

Whoa. My country is officially crazy.

Annoying coup d'etat. These people are totally out of their minds!!!! What do they want to prove anyway? The country already has enough problems as it is, and they're just adding more! Hello?! USE YOUR FUCKING HEADS!!!! If it isn't any good for thinking, just smash it into the ground and eat it for dinner! *heaving breaths* There ARE such things as peace talks you know... *grumbles* Geesh.

I love my country. Yeah. That's why I reacted like that. *sweatdrop*

Another thing that irks me is that all the malls are closed!!! GARRRRGGGHHH!!!! @_@ And we were supposed to watch Tomb Raider. Drat it. And tomorrow, we're going to Batangas. Just like fleeing tulisan. LOL. Oh well... then again, we don't have classes tomorrow so that's one good thing it brought up. ^_^ There was actually a TANK in front of our school gate this morning. O.o Talk about cool-ness.

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Friday, July 18, 2003]

WAH!!! Chaimu made our CLASS BLOG! I'm so proud of it! I'm so proud of you chaimu! *grins widely* Visit, people! click on the link! ^_^

I think I'm getting the hang of this programming stuff. Really interesting thing... O.o the ingenuity of humans is amazing *WOW*.

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Wednesday, July 9, 2003]

T'was our exposure today... fun, but not fulfilling (yuck! I think those values crap were finally pounded into my brain). Well, so what did we do? I'll just type down a short summary (*cough cough* unlike some people there... *cough*) about it.

Okay, we went to a place near Bicutan, riding a "school bus" (heavy emphasis on the quote and quote, my friends knowing very well what that means. *heehee*) and we talked about dumb things on the way, which was fun. ^_^ Upon arriving, we went to the PATAMABA place (did I get it right?) and they (teachers) sort of discussed what we were supposed to do. I honestly don't think that they knew what we were actually supposed to do. *sweatdrop* Well, we went to a gym and said hi to people, walked a long way towards a small store that they have (Cool, cheap stuff! Though I didn't get to buy any *pouts*), and separated to our groups. My group went to this cozy place where it was breezy, and we talked to this woman who was part of the organization. After that, we sort played with fishies (ehehehe) and raided the little 'tindahan' by the sidewalk. I blew plastic balloons!! *grins happily, playing with a plastic balloon* (minnie me: ERRR... right) Teehee... well, we went back to the PATAMABA place and ate scrumptiddlydicious lunch! YUM!! ^_^ After that, we had a Forum (the place was boiling!!!) and we went home early. So there.

I really think that this wasn't as intense as last year's exposure. Last year, we really had to walk, and we got lost a few f*cking times, and stuff like that. This time, it sort of seems like exposing us to the simple life of common women - which really made me think and WANT that kind of life, because it seems so... nice. I would really like to be contented with simple things. Today, everything's just so complicated. *shakes head*

minne me: stop philosophizing.

you're such a mood- breaker! *sticks out tongue*

Well, it was the side events that made it fun. F4 merchandise all over the streets (F4 bubble gum and mini- playing cards! hilarious!!!) and us looking like a green snake on the road. ^_^ I'll have to agree with what Chill said on her blog, though... they discriminate against us. I guess they feel intimidated, that's why some of them were bitter. Like the basurero guys who were mocking us, and the kids who were calling out "Ang daming shirts!", because we were all in green. I just laughed at them, though. Pitiful creatures. *tsk tsk*

Well. Too long already. ~_~' Drat. I gotta research econ and read fil. Hell.

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Sunday, July 6, 2003]

Hey, cool! the paragraph thingy works! *grins* Thanks for the tip, chill!

Anyway, last night was fun. It was Ishy's "anticipated debut". Anticipated, because she only turned 16, not 18. It had the works! The gowns, the ballroom, the food (though it was a bit too rich for me), the cotillion, the presentations, the 16 candles and roses, the sobbing and crying - everything! It was the first one I've been to and I think it was okay. The theme was "Oscar's night", and it started out with her "winning" an award for best actress (the movie she was supposedly into was CSI Miami! LOL *grins*).

I wore a black, spaghetti- strap , cocktail dress (and I felt underdressed ;p) and simple make-up. Thing is, my strapless bra kept falling because my breasts aren't big enough to keep them on! *pouts* (babae lang naman tayo dito, diba? *raises an eyebrow*) Camry was wearing blue (hehe), Fefe was cute in pink, and Selene was Ms. La Bonita! Chaimu was in black, with no make- up (minnie me: how chaimu- ish). Everyone was beautiful that night, just like the jr. prom. The part I liked best was the towards the end... the dancing!!!!

You should see Chaimu dance.

*bursts out laughing*

*cheers* GO CHAIMU! GO CHAIMU!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! *grins evilly* Chaimu was so cute, bouncing up and down to the beat of rap songs! BWAHAHAHAHA!!! The whole class was egging her on to dance! It was so cute and funny! Teeeheehee... *ROFLMAO*

I'll go die now before Chaimu kills me first tomorrow. *dies laughing*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Friday, July 4, 2003]

Okay. So it's the end of the week, and normal, happy students usually go crazy over the the thought of weekend *looks at crazy students doing cartweels and stuff*... but not me. Nope. I am not a normal, happy student.

I am what you call a pathetic, UNhappy student who has review classes for the whole f*cking day on saturdays. ~_~

And that's not all, we have additional HOMEWORK. Hell. As if the everyday quizzes, homeworks and tests (oh my! -- err... think wizard of oz) in school aren't enough. And the thing is, I did half for 3 hours today (friday!!! who ever heard of studying on fridays????), and I just found out that it isn't due tomorrow.

CRAP.

have a fun weekend, people. *grumble*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Tuesday, July 1, 2003]

I love this day!!! ^_^ I get to go home early! (which is a rare opportunity, indeed);p I just watched Ranma! kyul to the max! I LOVE RYOGA FOREVER! *kilig* He's so kawaii! nyahahaha. *grins madly* Well, hrmmm... what else to say? I gotta get used to this. I've never had a diary before (not unless you include the little green notebook where I write my plans to destroy the world). *cough cough* Just pretend you didn't read that. Anyway, I'm watching my MVP Valentine now... haha, baduy! but it's okay, i like the story. ^_^ And after that, Meteor Garden! Whooo!!! Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of those obsessed girls. (minnie me: RIGHT. ~_~') You betcha! *grins*

tesuka-chan entered her weird world on [Sunday, June 29, 2003]

Oh. My. God. I just found out today that I had a blog. O.o Okay, let me start from the beginning... I had this freak-ish friend, chill, who texted me like 6:30 today. And what did she say? ::Ei Tesuka- chan! I made you a blog and I'm going to make a website for your fictions!:: *shocked* Of course, I thought she was sick or something, for doing something like that for me, especially when we were bombarded with homeworks and shitty tests. But noo~~~ I checked this website and it's true! And it's beautiful! And... I OWE YOU MY LIFE, CHILL!!! *hugs and never let go* *sniff* Well, I swear, no one has ever done this for me before... especially that I'm a non- computer literacy person that I am. *sniff* Gosh... This is awesome! ^_^ Okay, I am definitely going to learn how to make websites now. *grins happily* p.s. and I have a tagboard!!! ALL RIGHT!!!! *hops up and down*