soul searcher

tesuka-chan thought so again on [Saturday, February 21, 2004]

*HOORRRAAAYYYY!!!*


I'm so bloody happy... I PASSED UP!!!!! *jumps up and down* Alright! And the course I wanted too... architecture. ^_^ Happy, happy... ;p


*sigh* But to tell you the truth, the excitement and thrill of getting in wore off. I've been excited since the last week of January... then they kept on postponing the test results so I guess I got tired. :P Still, I AM happy. You know, little-green-people-dancing-on-my-stomach kind of happy. *grins*


Well, I can't help being afraid too, even just a little. Hell, who wouldn't be afraid?! From all the stories I've heard (and there are LOTS, mind you), I get a bit queasy. The culture shock coming from an exclusive private school to a liberal government school, the frighteningly smarter-than-thou students, the high expectations and hopes... I'm having doubts that I can live up to everything. But then again... THIS IS UP! I think I can do it. I KNOW I can do it. And somehow, I feel that I have to be exposed to the real world, sooner or later. I can't stay sheltered forever. :P

I have to get out!!! To be free!!!


Come fly with me
Across the sea
To a place where we can be free...

-- 6CycleMind


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Wednesday, February 11, 2004]

Hmmm. I'm thinking on moving to tabulas. *think think*
Pros:
1. It will be easier for me to edit because I don't really know html coding. If you're wondering, this and my past layout were done by friends, namely Chill and Chaimu. :3 Hehe.
2. It's easy to use.
3. Errmmm... I want to change my layout by myself and be independent! I don't want to burden Chaimu with everything... not unless she's a masochist and likes being bossed around by little 'ol me! *suddenly becomes very huge* MWAHAHAHAHA!!!
Well, I'll think about it. ^_^


Oh yeah, there were rumors going around about me saying some mean stuff to this certain guy... well. I won't really verify anything. I just know that I said some things to get him off my back because he was really annoying the hell out of me (especially with the added spice of teasing in school). But... it's not really THAT evil. He probably took it to heart, poor guy. Hmm. By now, my rep will be tarnished in that certain school. HA! Like I bloody hell care. *grins evilly*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Sunday, February 8, 2004]

Well, it's been a while. *sigh*


Just had one helluva week. Fair was okay... not really what I expected, but okay. Loved the bands and all - but there were some parts that I'd rather not think about. ;p After that, everything just sunk like quicksand (I think I got that from the movie "The Replacements"). I crammed everything. Projects, quizzes, IP... not to mention my trouble with a certain camera and a certain asshole of an uncle. Had a pretty humiliating experience, and because of that, I wasn't able to do my project for school the next day.
Yeah. Well. I don't give a shit anymore these days.
Two more weeks.
I hope I can last that long. ;p


On to better news: it was Camry's bday celebration last friday! KARAOKE TO THE MAX! Funnest time I had for ages... Geesh! I swear, I'm going there after the ball!!! *grins*

And on Saturday, I was an usherette for the Junior's night (prom). Pretty fun, watching the people all dressed up. Not to mention checking out their celebrity dates! JAPOY is sooooo cute!!! He's the guy from the taekwondo Milo commercial, the one who is the spitting image of Lei from Meteor Garden. Though the guy's short (understatement) and practically looks somewhat autistic (LEI, I TELL YOU!) he is a real live, anime figure! The face! What a pretty boy!! *mwahahaha!!!* Well... JR (the singer, whatever) was there too, though he left kind of early with an entourage of body guards. Marc Nelson showed up for the prayer (huh?!). And... oh! The bands were really good! 2 were from Lasalle, and one was Miguel Escueta. NICE.

Though... I totally liked our own Junior's night better. ;p *grins*



tesuka-chan thought so again on [Wednesday, January 28, 2004]

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!


I *toot* lost my UST form!!!!! Now I don't know my application number and I can't check if I passed!!!! o.O
*TOOT* *TOOT* *TOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!*


Announcer: Ladies and gentlemen, we interrupt this blog update to delete all the foul language used. Thank you for being patient. *insert annoying "relaxing" music*


*heave, heave* OH- kay... some semblance of sanity please. @_@ Garrrgggh. I hate myself for losing that. It's UST for God's sake! UST!!! *wails*



tesuka-chan thought so again on [Tuesday, January 27, 2004]

FAIR! *jumps* FAIR! *jumps* FAIR!!!! *Blagggaaabaaahhhgg!!!*

Wah... I'm so excited! It's our fair this friday and saturday! So many good bands will be there including Parokya ni Edgar and Rivermaya! Whooo!!! *happy happy* I am hyper. I am stressed. ~_~'

Whoops. I forgot to explain what a soiree is. ^_^ Well, it's actually a get together of classes from an all- girl's school and an all- boy's school. It's a way to meet guys for us hopeless ones. *nods* But sometimes, they don't work because most of the guys in a class may have girlfriends. *cough cough* Such a pity... they don't know what they missed. ;p Hehe.

Speaking of all- boys school, I went to ateneo last saturday to watch a concert... along with one fourth of our batch! We dominated that place, I think. *grins* It was a fun experience. *grins* A band from our batch in school played, and another friend was a singer for an all- boy band. The only teeth-gnawing part there was when they made those same bands (mentioned above) the last ones to perform. Gah. How annoying. ~_~' Well, at least I got to watch Out of the Box and Spongecola! *WAAAHHH!!!*

Happy... happy...
(this is obviously one of my screwed up days.)
Heeheehee...


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Monday, January 19, 2004]

Soiree? I feel like I am too old for this... *sighs*

I am the only one in my family that studies/ed in an all- girl's school for high school. Naturally, my sisters do not know what the word "soiree" means. Probably thought that it's just a fancy shmancy word for party... which it is, in a way. ;p Those things are so awkward. And funny. And a cry of desperation among the female population of our class. Yes, it is the "prom/ball season" as my sister puts it perfectly. Therefore, demand for boys is high. Such a sad thing...

But one cannot ignore the fact that the "prom/ball season" is not the only reason (rhymes!!) for soirees. Oh, no no no! It is not only that. A girl cannot help but hope and sigh that maybe - just maybe - love may perhaps chance upon them on that blessed occasion. Right. That is the bane of all girls in an all- girls school: the chances are low, and if a spark of hope will even blink at them, they shall scramble and grab for it. What a sad, sad existence. But still -- an existence! Romantic, quite. Pathetic, true. Hopeless, not so!


A spark
Is a blink
In the dark
And a link
To a light
Far above
To a might
Called... love.


Damn. I'm in one of my pessi-opti days... Pessimistic one paragraph, optimistic on the next. I confuse myself somtimes. *silence* Fine. Most of the time.


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Friday, January 16, 2004]

We just had the most amazing lesson in English class. O.o


Our lesson was about the song "Vincent", the one recently sung by Josh Groban. It's about the world famous artist, Vincent Van Gogh, who painted because he wanted to give to humanity and console their sorrows. But despite of all his noble intentions and actions, he had to take all this crap full of rejections. He was in and out of asylums until finally, he couldn't take it - so he killed himself. I swear, that is one huge loss for mankind.

This one really touched me because I can truly relate to it. I'm sort of an artist myself in all sense of the word - I paint, I love colors, and I am quite sensitive (yeah, I get depressed a lot... though I've learned to control those bouts ;p). And one final thing I have in common with Vincent Van Gogh: I think humanity has hope.
Well, at least my country.

Patriotic, aren't I?
Actually, I figured this out even before the lesson. A bit on the optimistic side, but what the hell is life anyway without a little hope, right? I LOVE my country. With all its destitute glory, its corrupt officials, its degraded environment - I still think there is hope. And I will cling to that hope until I die. NO... I SHALL NOT CUT OFF MY EAR NOR KILL MYSELF. I'm not stupid. I'll do my best for this world, and it's their loss if they don't heed my efforts. And then I shall weep for them for that will be the only thing the world is worth. But... I am young and still idealistic. Plenty of time to act, plenty of time to love. ;p


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Thursday, January 15, 2004]

COOL. Quizzes. How ironic... I have four quizzes tomorrow (namely math, physics, filipino, and economics) and here I am, TAKING online quizzes. I am just plain weird. -_-'


Smirk
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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This is cool. O.o

pummel
Weapons are not your thing. You would prefer to
pummel your opponent to death with your fists
and feet. You show a lot of Honor but some
power still eludes you. I can give you this
power, I can make you stronger, join me.

How would you Murder?
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garg
You are Form 4, Gargoyle: The Fallen. "And The Gargoyle mended his wings from the
blood of the fallen so he could rise up from
imprisonment. With great speed and
resourcefulness, Gargoyle made the world his
for the taking."
Some examples of the Gargoyle Form are Daedalus
(Greek) and Mary Magdalene (Christian). The Gargoyle is associated with the concept of
success, the number 4, and the element of wood. His sign is the new moon. As a member of Form 4, you are a creative and
resourceful individual. You are always
thinking of possible solutions to problems you
face and you generally choose one that is
right. Much of your success comes from your
ability to look at things a little differently
than everyone else. Gargoyles are the best
friends to have because they don't always take
things for face value.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

This one's ME!!!

Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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tesuka-chan thought so again on [Tuesday, January 13, 2004]

WAH! Projects are coming in TRUCKLOADS!!!
Along with lots of social events... *moves eyebrows up and down* :D

For some odd reason, I feel like I'm pumping with energy these days and am inspired to do work! (or maybe it's the caffeine from coke...) PRACTICALLY ONE WHOLE MONTH LEFT!!! O.o One more month of fourth year... one more month of high school... then goodbye AC! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! *maniacal laughter continues then fades* I can't wait! ^_^ I'll just have to watch out so I won't fail any subjects. Wouldn't want to NOT get my diploma now, would I? Teeheehee.


I got dark because of the intrams. Damn you sun!!! And to think we have a soiree this saturday. *shurgs* WHAT DO I CARE ABOUT BOYS ANYWAY? *sniff* They ain't worth any of my time... *flips hair and walks off*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Saturday, January 10, 2004]

O.O
Gosh. What a week.
Intrams was quite intense... but I'm glad to say that we were overall champion in highschool!!! *YAY* (Okay, so they didn't really announce it, but it was obvious!) We were champions in sack race (my class!), obstacle race, kickball, and cheering!! WHOOO!!! Go Seniors! ^_^


And to add to the all- high feeling, I passed the ME course in Ateneo! Really came as a shock because I really didn't expect it. I wrote that course just for the heck of it! ^_^ Happy, happy, happy...


Hmmm. Back to regular sched next week. You know what THAT means. In the meantime, I shall bask in the glorious state of happiness and lollygag. *sigh*



tesuka-chan thought so again on [Wednesday, January 7, 2004]

Ah! Back to school! (actually since monday ;p) Got my grades... not bad for some, a real sore for the others. Well, I expected it. -_-' At least I got in La Salle. Ateneo's out this Saturday... wah!!


Welll... so many people finding this website! Drat. I don't know if I should be happy or hide under a rock. Heehee... joke. It is the consequence of having a diary published in the net, I suppose. :P *sigh* I'll just have to control my thoughts then. I don't want another hurt-because-of-blog thing. Besides, it's not like I think bad thoughts about people most of the time. *angelic face* Wehehehe...


Intrams this week! I'm soooo proud of our batch, we're beating up the lower levels!! (well, not sure, but two sections from the batch got in the final four! ^_^) WAHAHAHA!!!! *brings out neon pink pompoms and starts cheering*:
I DON'T KNOW BUT I'VE BEEN TOLD!
(I don't know but I've been told!)
SENIORS ARE GONNA WIN THIS GOLD!
(Seniors are gonna win this gold!)
HEY- HO!
LET'S GO!
SENIORS! LET'S FIGHT!!!


*met by utter silence*
Uh.. right. ~_~' ANYWAY... I'm playing soccer tomorrow! I hope we beat the crap out of the lower levels!! *evil grin* Wish me luck! Heeheeheee...


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Friday, January 2, 2004]

OHHHHH!!! I found this game where you get to be a vampire and suck the blood out of humans! Pretty kewl... if you want to check it out, go here It's kind of low tech (no pics) but PRETTY interesting!! LOLZ! ^_^

PLUGS! (Uhhh... okay, I don't really know what this means but I just figured out that they're replies to people who visited or something... right? ANYWAAAYYY....)
Sta: thanks too! No problem... hehehe. :P
foxy: yeah, don't remind me. I'm already embarrassed enough as it is. ;p
sleeper: Thanks! Happy new year too! *grins*
hells_angels: yeah, I know! I went to another mass today but nothing really much happened. Sayang. :D
Rosa: How the heck did you find this?! @_@

Ugh. Tinatamad akong matulog! Hehe... (pwede ba yun?) Well, watched a cool fireworks display in Manila Bay today. There's SOOOOOO many people... *shakes head* Well, the whole thing lasted 25 minutes. I figured it costs about 1.5 Million or something, to put up that show. (Actually, my dork of a sister figured that out ;p) They lit the fireworks in a barge a few kilometers away from the shore. I really liked it! That was actually the first time I went there to do something fun. Haha. ;p

Oh... did I miss something? Hmmm... let's see... ah yeah!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
Though it's technically the second day of the year because it's already 12:43 am and I'm pretty hyper because of the cotton candy I ate and... *yada yada*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Thursday, January 1, 2004]

QUIZZESS!!! What a nice way to start the new year... hehehe. ^_^

goodbye
You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.

What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla You are BRUCE!
What Finding Nemo Character are You?

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OHHH BRUCE! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! *grins*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Sunday, December 28, 2003]

BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

I'm a bit late in the greeting thing, but it's better late than never, right? It's just that I've been quite busy with my tita from Canada here and all. (Damn, she forgot about my requested Dashboard Confessionals CD -_-') Ohhh... I've been going to quite a lot of masses this period and I have a little something:


Christmas Eve Mass Bloopers!
My family and I went to mass in Ateneo (for all my sister's love for her school) and it was a pretty long, albeit quite funny mass. First of all, I think the commentator's an OC (obsessive compulsive). The people were saying the Apostle's creed ahead of her and she stopped to say with a very haughty voice, "Please enunciate." And half of the congregation fell to their knees. It's obvious that half of the people does not know what that means. And, I am ashamed to admit, I did too. Hey, for my defense, I DO know what that word means... it's just that everyone near me was kneeling and I figured, well, okay. How MORTIFYING. Good thing Mrs. Eala and Ms. Ledesma weren't there... or I'd just DIE. X_X
Another was when there was obviously a miscalculation of hosts during communion. There were SOOOO many people that they had to get more hosts from the Jesuits twice. So sad. *tsk tsk tsk* Everyone was itching to get the whole thing over with so they can start with the Noche buena but they had to wait 30 minutes for the communion to finish. LOL. We were still in the car by 12. Quite amusing.


Oh, and I just came from another mass earlier this evening and the priest sang the wrong song. FUNNY!! How can a priest sing the wrong song for HIS mass? Teeheehee... and the mic for the soloist was off. Haha. I'm just so evil sometimes. *evil grin*


Anyway, that's that for Christmas. I wonder what New Year will bring. *ponders* Hmmm. Half- dislodged fingers? Burst Brains? Yummy.



tesuka-chan thought so again on [Sunday, December 21, 2003]

Shit. Na- impatso ako kanina.


My family and I ate in Chilli's for lunch today. I practically inhaled their fries and ribs. And the molten chocolate cake dessert... mmmmm.... don't get me started. Chocolate is my total weakness. But after eating all of that, I literally turned GREEN. That was one of those times when green is NOT my favorite color. And to think that there were a couple of cute guys on the other table (this sentence has no connection with the story. Just wanted to mention that. ;p). That was really bad... I wanted to puke in the bathroom. We were actually supposed to go shopping in Greenhills but because of the unfortunate incident, we had to go home. *sigh* Well, at least we avoided traffic. ;p


Oh, I can't believe I forgot to write about the concert I went to last friday! Actually, we made a hilarious movie video thing for our math project for the most part that day. Then around 7, Ja drove us to her former school where we paid 300 f*cking bucks to watch Paolo Santos, Sugarfree, and Cambio. Initially, the horrible little kuripot girl that I am, I wouldn't think twice about NOT going. But then the lure of seeing Sugarfree live and the alternative choice of staying at home and be miserable just convinced me to spend a little. Well, as it went, we arrived when Paolo Santos was playing. I didn't care much about him so Ja gave us a tour of her VERY NICE school. The school has 2 fields, damn it! Ours only has a patch of grass in the middle. Very beautiful... and long. That's the word. I found it quite long.
Anyway, Sugarfree was next. I was quite annoyed because the little gradeschool kiddies were sitting at the front and we couldn't really get wild much. But as the songs progressed, they finally got the picture that SOME PEOPLE wanted to have fun and they moved away. Then all hell broke loose. I was dancing and screaming my heart out. Jal, the bassist, was kind of cute, I noticed. I noticed too that my friends and I were the craziest there. Well. One couldn't blame us. We were there to have fun and by God we WILL have fun! And we sort of did. ;p
Cambio was next after them. I never really heard of them before but they were pretty good, except for the wannabe guy who was jumping at the audience. He doesn't even sing very well. :P The band was sort of a cross- band, almost all of them were members of other famous bands like Slapshock, Fatal Posporos, and even Sugarfree. REALLY fun. But then it was cut short because of my bitchy sister. We were supposed to eat a late dinner after but here she came, as stormy as ever and dragged me out. TCH. Sisters. ~_~


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Thursday, December 18, 2003]

*starts clapping and cheering* BRRRR! It's cold in here! There must be CHESKA in the atmosphere! *rahrah* (Source: from the movie, "Bring It On" *laugh laugh*)


Boy, it really IS getting cold here. Christmas season rules! Here are five reasons why I love Christmas:
1) VACATION FROM SCHOOL! (need I say more?)
2) Presents! (money, preferably)
3) Parties! (and lots of drinking!)
4) Relatives home from abroad! (not to mention pasalubongs! )
5) serious, blessed, and the most holy... lollygagging. (wehehehe... laziness is an indulgement these days ;p)


WAH!! We had a Christmas party last night... total, pure fun! It was in my classmate's house and i tell you, it was one helluva house. Very huge and pretty with a backyard. And for the first time in my life, I really got DRUNK. I swear, I tasted each and every kind of booze that was there, from beer to wine. And, much to my dismay and chagrin, I actually took part in an act that I abhorred previously... KARAOKE!!! Oh gosh, it was so much fun! Picture this: a group of drunk girls, screaming their lungs out singing Kapag Tumibok ang Puso wholeheartedy in a backyard. Really was funny... and the neighbors were watching us being crazy. REALLY watching from the balcony. They even danced with us! Crazy fun!!! *sigh* Life is good. *grins widely*

Now if only I could figure out how to put up a new layout by myself, life would be perfect...


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Sunday, December 14, 2003]

Oh greatgobbledygook! I was laughing so hard earlier, my stomach was in shambles! Our karaoke neighbor was singing the Spaghetti song (or whatever's the title) wholeheartedly. And he's a guy!! It's so funny... I could hear him sing while I studied Physics. Heeheehee... *grins*

Ohhhh... test week this week! For some odd reason, I don't really feel like it's test week. I'm too relaxed (or maybe just numbed). Is that good or bad? Should I start freaking out? Oh well. Whatever happens, happens. Damn. Still no shopping done *freaks out*. ~_~' (See? I worry more about gifts than school!!!)


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Thursday, December 11, 2003]

Ah... haven't blogged for two weeks. Busy, busy, busy as usual! At least MOST of the projects are done and over with. *phew* Orals are over too. Hmm... well, tests next week... and then time to PAR~TY!!! *whoo!!!* Christmas, here I come! ^_^

Damn. I haven't bought gifts yet. ~_~ Oh gosh... malls will be packed, money is sparse, and I have no idea what to give my friends! WAH!!! SHOPPING STRESS!!! @_@ hahaha... stress is everywhere, I tell you. ;p

Having some really pestiferous teasing happening in school. Geesh... can't people just get the picture? They keep teasing me about this ~guy~ every f*cking day. I'm getting real sick of it. Well, all I can do is just sit there and have no reactions at all. To tell the truth, I don't really care because it doesn't affect me (hey, I know it's not true). What really affects me are the shrill voices and the jokes that makes my concentration waver from the lessons. Yeesh. And the worst thing is that my closest friend is the one that usually starts it. PAH.


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Saturday, November 29, 2003]

~~9:05pm~~
Oh hell. They're singing rap. *chokes and dies*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Saturday, November 29, 2003]

~~9:00pm~~
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
It's KARAOKE night in our neighbor's house.
That should explain it all.

MAKE IT STOP, PLEASE... MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!!!!


I'm going crazy here. Really.


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Saturday, November 29, 2003]

Phew. hell week's over. Orals nalang. ~_~'


Ohhh... went to a play in Ateneo yesterday, a part of our alternative christmas charity project. It was entitled "Kaharian ng Araw" and it was pretty short and dramatic. It's all about setting your priorities straight and thinking of the important things in one's life. As expected, the cast was all- boys, and I was really awed by the chorale (it was a musicale) and the music (there were violins!!! who wouldn't love it?). Not to mention the costumes. Creative lot, they are. Imagine, creating headresses and brooches out of electric fan parts. Impressive, really. And there were some cute guys... but none that really caught my eye *winks*.


The thing that really peeved (ha! a new word I learned! *grins*) me was that some of my teachers were there because they got in free. And not that many people attended. Nakakahiya sa director! . I mean, there were only two people from my class, Sars and I, and less than half of the sponsoring class. The rest were freshmen students that a senior suckered into buying tickets. *sigh* Well, it was well worth 180 bucks anyway. ^_^


Oh yeah. I found my plastic envelope in school. Thank God for guards. *phew*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Sunday, November 23, 2003]

Oh God. I am so going to throttle, slit, choke, decapitate, and bloody hell MURDER that annoying sister of mine. *steam coming out of ears*


let's start from the beginning, shall we? Last friday, I gave my stuff to my sister to bring home so that I wouldn't have to bring it with me to the mall. She agrees and all's well. Then a few minutes ago, I realized, "WHERE THE HELL IS MY PLASTIC ENVELOPE?!!!" THE plasic envelope where EVERYTHING, as in ~everything~, about my research paper is. I asked if she brought it with her. She said, she saw it, but didn't bring it. I was... WTF???! That was the one thing I've been laboring on the whole week last week and she left it in school!!! And she had the GALL to get angry! I mean, WHO IN SEVEN HELL DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? Just because it was her birthday last saturday, she thinks she's so mature. Well, wake up, little sister. You're ~NOT~.


*huff huff*


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Friday, November 21, 2003]

me: *crazed look* Is it over? IS IT DONE?!!!
cynical self: yeah...
me: O.o really? REALLY? *blinks*
cynical self: yup.
me: *questioning eyebrow* I'm not dead, am I?
cynical self: sadly, no.
me: *pinches self* then it's true! IT'S TRUE!!! SALVATION!!! *rejoices, while dancing at the edge of a flaming sword*
cynical self: Well... *ponders* there are still the orals.. and the unit tests and FIlipino project and IP...
me: I DON'T CARE! I'M DONE WRITING IT AT LAST!! TWO STRAIGHT NIGHTS OF SLEEPING AT 2 AM... NO MORE, NO MORE!!! *wahahahaha!!!!*
cynical self: yup. overdose of caffeine and apples. Pitiful.


Rejoice. Rejoice. See the eyebags under my eyes? See my pale face and my trembling hands? Stress can and WILL kill. It will not hesitate. I am a living, breathing, dead person. @_@ Just think about it. Thank God for weekends and holidays.


Oh yeah, plugged in a couple of people, namely Sumin, Foxy and Hells_angel... WELCOME TO MY CASTLE OF TERROR!!! *grins evilly*



tesuka-chan thought so again on [Saturday, November 15, 2003]

Stress her, stress there, STRESS EVERYWHERE!!! WHEEEE!!! *jumps around looking like the lunatic that she is*


Okay... I'm more depressed than I thought. ~_~' I KNOW! I shall make a list of things to do here, so that whenever the temptation to linger in the net pulls me towards it, I shall go here and remind myself! YOSH! ^_^


1. Write story
2. do yearbook cover
3. write research paper
4. study for DLSU exam
5. plan for IP
6. pluck eyebrows


So much work for one so young... *sigh* I will think happy thoughts and fly through all of this! Yeah!! POSITIVE ENERGY!!!!


minnie me: Anou, tesuka-chan... you don't have to carry the day bed... and the computer chair... and the computer... *sweatdrop* Okay, no more coke for you!!!


Damn. @_@ DO not support San Miguel products!!! (but my beloved caffeine! And alcohol! *sobs*)


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Monday, November 10, 2003]

*stares at fizzy black and white screen of the television*


I. CANNOT. BELIEVE IT. O.o


If you people are wondering why I haven't blogged the minute I came back... well, blame Camry. She lent me 24 hours worth of Hana Yori Dango tapes. The whole damned thing. I watched from afternoon saturday until 1:00 am yesterday, 5:00pm yesterday 'til 2:00 am this morning, and the whole day this day until a few minutes ago... 8:00 pm. It was so addicting. I loved every minute of it! I can't believe it just ended like that!!!! ANNOYING!!! o.O *starts banging on the t.v.*

Anyway, enough about my crazed anime- fangirl self, on to the retreat. Yep, no doubt about it! THE BEST RETREAT EVER! Oh, and there's nothing wrong with my stomach, thank you very much. I have a bothersome bump on my forehead because of some stupidity in the parking lot of pancake house. The damned metal sign bumped into me!!! It wasn't looking where it was going... gosh, you would think that those things have no EYES!! *huff huff*
Well, besides that, the weather was deliciously cold and foggy, the Fr. Edwin was a great facilitator (feh, more than half of the class has a crush on him ;p) , and the food was not bad either. I loved it! I didn't want to go back to the hustle and bustle of Manila and the worries and pressures in school. *sigh* Well, can't be helped. We all have to go back to reality some time, even if the fantasy is perfect. ;p


Hmmm. I've seen The Matrix Revolutions. Fighting scenes rocked. :D


tesuka-chan thought so again on [Monday, November 3, 2003]

KYA! new layout! Inuyasha!!!! :3 whooo... Arigatou to Chaimu for the design! And upload! And everything! *teeheehee...*


minnie me: She is totally a slave driver. ~_~'


Yup! That I am! *grins
Hmmm... don't worry Chill! I'm reserving your design for Christmas! Only the best, right? ^_~ Luv ya!


WAHAHAHA. 5 DAYS IN BAGUIO. I'm so excited... I'm leaving tomorrow! *hops around with glee* I can't wait for the cold! And no homework! God is good. God is great. ^_^ Wish me luck people! I hope I don't get sick...



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